Modern Day Schizophrenia

One of the most peculiar mental symptoms I find in this contemporary day and age is schizophrenia. The disease that creates a different perception of reality for one individual is not agreed upon the others. This in turn creates the fact that these individuals are just hallucinating, what they are witnessing is something they have just created inside their own minds. But aren’t we all victims of the same hallucinations? But the only difference is that we have the luxury to fantasize about those fears whereas these individuals make it a reality and deal with it everyday.

It was somewhere in between watching the Beautiful Mind and Woh Lamhe, that people with this mental disorder have the choice to face these fears. They spend each waking moment facing the reality and lies of what this world has to offer. In the lies that are created in their mental state is cleared up by their own inner struggle to find the truth. The truth of who they are, what is real and what is not. The most captivating scene, in which I had melted into goo, was in the Beautiful Mind. John Nash had entered his room to apologize to his wife about his behavior. His inner struggle to decipher the truth had led way to the climax of his frustration. Then in a mere instant, the frustration, anger, hurt had all dissolved when the wife held his hand and said, “This is real”. The camera pans up as she moves his hand to her face. Just a simple touch, feeling, sensation of belonging, warmth and comfort. Enough to provide motivation for John Nash to decipher the reality of his mental disorder.

The reason I bring this up, as mentioned above, is that I sometimes get lost in this fantasy. Spend day’s on end either it be in some meditative form or regular day, trying to understand and face my fears. I fail to realize it is just that, a mental form, perception and attitude. I have for a long time to run away from my fears, suppressing these emotions then going head in first into the dangerous elements. It has been with an attitude to defeat this fear and let it subside forever. But forever is never and time is always temporary. It has become more evident to me, that I must live with these fears in my mind or heart. Let them arouse inside me and invite them with open arms. I for one am this modern day schizophrenic, hell I would stamp myself with a seal if needed.

These grim realities/perception need to exist. They need to be there. So I am going to enjoy them and bask with them as I enjoy myself. But the difference is this: Allow/feel these fears but do not let them CONTROL me. I commend the people who are able to face their fears in reality.